I haven't let you go, Though I can not hold you. I now think of things, That I should have told you. The first is I'm sorry For treating you like I did. I should have known better, But I was just a kid. The second is I miss you, More than you well ever know. In my heart and my soul, I can not let you go. I never got the chance To fully grieve. I know this Is a selfish need. I need to let you go. I have a life to live. But I can't go on Without the love you used to give. I don't remember the date But I remember the phone call. I prayed so hard, But you never came back at all. I try so hard To remain strong. But I still overflow with tears, Every time I hear your favorite songs. So tonight I find myself, Unable to sleep. Memories of you Continue to make me weep. You've heard the first and second, I'm sorry and I miss you. I'd do anything just to hug and kiss you. The third and most important Is that I love you. And more than anything, I know you loved me too. I know you'd forgive me And tell me its all okay. But I wish I would have apologized, Before that terrible day. I lost you, But feel like I'm the one who is dead. I wish I would have told you, All these things I should have said. I'm sorry. I miss you. I love you.