I haven't let you go, Though I can not hold you.
I now think of things, That I should have told you.
The first is I'm sorry For treating you like I did.
I should have known better, But I was just a kid.
The second is I miss you, More than you well ever know.
In my heart and my soul, I can not let you go.
I never got the chance To fully grieve.
I know this Is a selfish need.
I need to let you go. I have a life to live.
But I can't go on Without the love you used to give.
I don't remember the date But I remember the phone call.
I prayed so hard, But you never came back at all.
I try so hard To remain strong.
But I still overflow with tears, Every time I hear your favorite songs.
So tonight I find myself, Unable to sleep.
Memories of you Continue to make me weep.
You've heard the first and second, I'm sorry and I miss you.
I'd do anything just to hug and kiss you.
The third and most important Is that I love you.
And more than anything, I know you loved me too.
I know you'd forgive me And tell me its all okay.
But I wish I would have apologized, Before that terrible day.
I lost you, But feel like I'm the one who is dead.
I wish I would have told you, All these things I should have said.
I'm sorry.
I miss you.
I love you.
Mercedes
12th September 2014